If you asked me to name one person who might benefit from light therapy to combat Seasonal Affective Disorder, I would tell you to look no further than in front of you.
I’m not saying I technically have SAD. I probably don’t, if it’s in fact an actual type of depression. I am gloomy a whole lot, and negative even more often than that, but I don’t think I’ve ever experienced the total and utter long-term despair that seems to attack a person’s mind suffering from actual depression.
But I do feel terrible when the weather’s bad. Even when it’s only rainy, I’m in a worse mood. So I wouldn’t be surprised to find that the winter does in fact make me even gloomier and more negative.
Enter the sun lamp.
I’ve used it for 3 days so far, a half hour each day, at maximum capacity.
I’ve noticed no change so far, except that I’ve been going to bed later this week. I wake up just as tired as my new normal apparently dictates.
Maybe it takes longer than 3 days to feel the effect. Maybe if you’re expecting to suddenly be bright and cheery all the time when you never were before, even during the summer, you’re just setting yourself up for failure.
But maybe, at the very least, when it’s spring according to the calendar and below freezing outside, the light will give my subconscious a glimmer of hope that all is not lost–that one day, eventually, I will feel the sun’s warmth again.
If that’s all it does, I’ll take it.